Family

I just don't get family sometimes . I sometimes feel like they always think that we need to take care of them , knowing it's hard to take care of yourself already. I don't know I'm just chilling at home waiting for mister and my mind is just running every which a way but the right way . All I ask is that God guides me the right direction. The one thing I do know is I can't take care of everyone like they expect me too. God please order my steps .... Nd I know I may have not have been the best servent in your eyes but I am your child who is coming to you for guidance so please guide me amen .....

HAVE I BEEN WITH A DL ALL ALONG???

Hey crazies !!! Last night as I was reading my magazines ( yea I'm still working on my vision board ) while Mister was doing what ever he does ( clip toe nails, fingernails, working or FB'ing and INST'ing ) in bed and the topic of how I display our love on any social network and he doesn't came up . Now he has never been the type to put our relationship on blast like that from 10 years ago , but he wears the wedding band I bought him and he is never scared to show his affection in public or even hide it in public, when you see us you know we are a couple. But my question to him is why not put a pic up of us why not post that he is having a date night with the MRisses. I know on my end and from my followers and friends our relationship is respected , but now my question is who is in your inbox or who is in your DM that you don't want anyone to see that your in a relationship with me. It makes me feel like he is ashamed of our relationship when I am far from being ashamed of being in one with him. He calls me crazy and stresses that he doesn't want anyone else but it's not him who I worry about but the world of the THOTS in GA. You know the ones that can care less of what you have with another and will throw ass at you like it ain't nothing butt a thang. Now I'm sure you guys are probably saying "you should be secure in your relationship" or " If you don't have trust in your relationship then why yall together" and again I will say it's not him I'm worried about. Honestly I'm the type of person that would say hey lets smash together if you feeling all that way, hell it aint no fun if your homie can't have none, but he is not that type. I mean if we did do it together how would we look at each other again especially him looking at me because I know I would most definitely be topping cause the pom pom is for his love only. I mean would you be able to have a threesome with your partner? I do know that it has been done and some relationships actually last longer and I get how it could but in my Jigga voice " It Ain't for everybody". It took a long time for me not to truly care or put it like this not have the thought process that my other half is cheating. Honestly I think it wasn't until I got cheated on by different people that I began not to care that is when I truly started to believe was done in the dark truly comes too the light. Until I was cheated on , by different people I no longer saw the need for me to go through the person's phone and try to sroll through there text messages or call log. I no longer saw the need to read how they responded to a persons comments or see if they liked or commented on someone else's picture. For starters it's exhausting and nerve wreaking going through all that and trying to figure out who is who . Let me tell you he has left his phone at home on many different occasions and not once have I went through his phone and yes I do know his code, but like the saying goes when you go searching you surly find what you are looking for and honestly I'm not looking for anything. The only thing I'm looking for is his face walking through the front door unharmed and his lips puckered up to give me sugar. I wonder if I am the only one that feels this way. Now don't get me wrong I use to be the typre that would go through phones and pictures looking for things but why it does nothing but cause heart ache so I figure if it's meant for me to find out I will and 9 times out of 10 I do. Am I the only one that feels this way? What say's you fellow crazies?????

Dear God

I know they say don't pray and worry but when it comes to a broken heart I can't help but to worry. My parents have been together for over 53 years and when I look at my father I see a heart broken man. I see a man that does not see hisself going on without his true love, but Dear GOD my prayer to you is that you please let me have him for five more years, five more years where I can pour all my love and affection on him and show him that all he has done and still does is appreciated. Five more years to create special memories, five more years to see him singing in the choir, five more years of him telling me my cooking taste just like my mothers. PLEASE GOD ALL I ASK FOR IS FIVE MORE YEARS WITH MY FATHER PLEASE PLEASE GIVE ME THAT. I know one thing for sure is that I can not take another heart break or another love gone too soon ( WELL IN MY EYES IT'S TOO SOON ) Please God can you give me that just 5 more years. 5 more years I promise he is feed and he makes his doctors appointments, 5 more years where he can relax and live out his last days in peace this is my promise to you dear God. So please grant me this as I come to you as your child and yes I know this is a selfish request because if you take him also I too wouldn't see my self going on in this world without both of my true loves Lethia and James Alston by my side AMEN. 

SOMETHING ABOUT THE SOUTH

I Just love visiting my in-laws way deep down in the GA woods, yes the pollen count is high and gets all over the cars, but there is something about chilling on there porch in the rocking chair listening to the birds chirp, watching the dogs relax in the yard and waving to all drivers that pass the house ( THEY LIVED HERE FOR OVER 30 YEARS SO THEY KNOW EVERYBODY) . It's something about this place that makes me feel safe, I'm not sure if it's his mothers warm smile , hug or inviting spirit , or if it's his parents respect for our " SPECIAL FRIENDSHIP" which is hard to find amongst true southern men and women. It hasn't always been this way......wait let me take that back when me and the Mister had a fallen out they have said that he shouldn't be with a man and that's why we was always getting into it and so on and so on, but to my face showed me nothing but love and I guess that is another reason why I love them, no matter what type of fight the Mister and I had they showed me nothing but love. I remember the first time meeting his parents we came for a church function and we spent the whole day with them upon leaving his mother held my hand and gave me a big hug and kiss now when she held my hand I felt a little pinch or stick I should say, she winked at me and when I looked down it was money, his father did the same thing. When we finally got in the car and I looked at the money and counted a total of 150 dollars can you believe it 150 bucks and they just met me. They must of known that I would be in there sons life for the long haul and not just a 1 night fling, parents can always tell well at least my mother could. The deep south is and will always be a part of me, there actions made it easier to love and live in the south. 

Smile bright Atlanta

The pics below of what you will look like crazy looking right ....😂😂😂😂😂 this is my first 30 min treatment. They suggest I do two 30 minute treat ya back to back so now I'm on to the next

HIGH HEELS & THE HOLY SPIRIT

I know I know I have not been here a lot of lately but I am here today. A couple weeks ago I joined my families church and I am now a proud member of Sweet Home Mission Baptist Church. I also decided to get baptized again hey why not I want to renew my spirit in a whole. While I was in church the one thing I noticed was a lot of short dresses and skirts , plus skinney jeans along with stilletoes, now if there was a club or even a day party they were walking into I can see wearing some of the outfits that I saw but um CHURCH NO MA'AM. Here is where the problem comes in at why wear these outfits knowing you going to get your shout and praise on , along with the occasional fall out !!!! No one wants to see your panties well HELL I SURE DON'T dress proper when entering the house of praise and our lord and savior.  I hope these young ladies are not thinking they are going to catch.......please erase that, especially my church I do not see any free agents worth all that. I wonder if they even understand that young ladies of the church are paying close attention to the way they dress !?!?!?! Maybe it's me and the way I grew up when I use to watch my mother wrap her handkerchief over her kness even when her dress reached way past her kness. Those were the days.......What say you crazies ?????? Am I wrong for feeling this way?!?!? 

Royally PISSED OFF

OK sox for the last two hours I have been trying to upload videos of really talented african americans that will put a smile on anyoes face with their vidoes. I want to get the name and vidoes out there to help them. Why not ?!?! If I have the means to push and assist others reach their goals I will do what I can . And it pisses me off that BLOGGER WILL NOT LET ME UPLOAD A 15SEC video. If there is anyone out there who has done it before canyu please help me PLEASE. 

Something new

Okay so you guys know I'm always trying something new. Well today I received my Smile Bright Atlanta home teeth whitening kit . Can we say pumped especially since I quite smoking and drinking heavy I'm trying to better myself not only in the mental but also in the physical. I will lelt you know what my review is and how I am handling the whitening . Below I am attaching a pic of what came in the package which was Whitening gel, Led light ( Which comes with batteries) , mouth piece, and a shade guide. The company claims that you can get at least get 20 treatments out of this one tube of gel ( WHICH I DOUBT IT WOULD A PERSON LIKE ME I HAVE NOTHING BUT TIME ON MY HANDS I'M GOING TO BE WHITENING DAILY). If I like the results I would suggest you guys purchase it. Smile Bright Atlanta sometimes sales the kit for 25 dollars as oppose to

the 99 price tag it is normally. So if I say its a go jump on it. 

Trying something new

I follow this page on Instagram called do it yourself remedies ( all one word ) and found the recipe below and since I suffer from COPD I said hey why not give it a try. I will let you guys know a little later tonight how it taste and how it made me feel. I'm sure I will be up since I can't sleep at night.  

Book review

Okay so remember about two - three weeks ago I told you guys that I purchased the book Picture Perfect and I will give my review on it it. Well I ABSOLUTELY LOVE IT. It starts of with his child hood and how he grew up , to fatherhood at young age and finally finding true love and having the family that he always wanted as a child. I know it took me forever to read it and I am to blame but taking care of two elderly people and a 12 year old girl kind of keeps one busy.  Would I recommend this book YES I WOULD , COULD I RELATE TO THE BOOK? OH HELL YEA please support them you would not regret it !

 

Annoyed

It really annoyes me that I am the one that suffers from COPD and Bronchotis but have a Aunt and Neice that are to lazy to do anything!!!!! I am Annoyed that I have tio ask my neice to do the dishes or clean the bathroom when she knows it's her chores but MIND you hand is out everytime. I am annoyed that her mother left her basically my responsibility why she is in NY getting hijgh and doing what ever God knows . I am annoyed that my aunt can't cook or grocery shop. I am annoyed at my aunt that it tookher 10 yeara to come out here and help with my Mother with my grandmother and we she gets here she does nothing. I am annoyed that all she has to doo is feed my grandmother breakfst and dinner but yet and stil complains when all she does is feed her and drug granny up. THe moral of thie story is I'M ANNOYED