QUICK THOUGHT!

I know, I know didn't he just log off...yes I did but I had another quick thought and need feedback. Tonight my boyfriend was getting in the shower and I was going to the store like usual I went to give him a kiss bye and tell him I love him and I will be right back....SIDE NOTE: Always before you leave out the door tell who ever your with that you LOVE THEM! AS I walked away he tells me to hurry up with my sexy ass, yes I blushed and walk out the door. As I drove to the store that comment trigger a thought in me am I SEXY? Don't get me wrong as I have gotten older I have learned to accept my looks and you know what I think I am not bad at all, I don't toot my own horn a lot, but what I noticed is that I am my worst critic. I critic everything from my nose and skin complexion to my flat ass and fat in my tummy area. Y I DON'T KNOW......I think there is always a little part of us that would change something regardless of what others may think.There are times when someone tells me I love your lips, or that I am handsome or pretty I don't believe them. As I have gotten older I learn to appreciate what I have been blessed with but sometimes that little insecure boy creeps in. Am I the only one that feels this way? That's all I will See you in the morning, I think I am going to also post my diet to from day to day.....good thought!

My Downfall!

Hello my people! tonight is the first night doing my KANYE WEST workout plan, and what i realized is that my downfall is going to be JUNKFOOD UGHHHHHHH! Let me make something clear before I go further I do not eaat junk food all day long it happens in spurts during the day I may crave chocolate and I will have 1-2 small hershey's, sunflower seeds or even tortillia chips. Here is where my downfall comes at night ughhhhhhh ( YEAH I KNOW IF HE SAYS THAT 1 MORE X ), at night I crave for everything from chocolate cake to keylime pie, from laffy taffys to gummi bears and sourpatch kids and oh yeah the worst of it all is SODA the worst of them all! CRAZIES please help me! SIGH !

TAKE A 38 DAY JOURNEY WITH ME!

Ok so I am embarking on the journey to ABS! That's right Ladies and Gents I will be 35 this September and by that day my six pack will be showing. I have enlisted a good friend of mine to help me with this as you can see ( everybody say hello ) to ab roller. Yes he will be there for the next 38 days. So here's how it is going to work starting today Monday thru Saturday I will do the ab roller twice a day 40 in the morning and the same at night, also between my sets with the ab roller I will also include push ups. I will also be posting weekly pics up so we can see the results today i did the first 40 and took a pic of my abs well when I went to post the pics my camera died so I will be posting 2 pics up this weekend . This routine will also go hand and hand with my regular gym days which is WEIGHT LIFTING M-W-F and Cardio for 30 Tues-Thurs along with abs in this day. I will also try to cut out my carb intake ( HARDER THAN A MUG) only brown carbs. I will try my damndest to keep you guys updated. WISH ME LUCK!

Booker T. Washington High grad Deonte Bridges' Valedictorian speech

ALL I CAN SAY IS WATCH AND ENJOY......IF THIS IS THE KIND OF YOUNG MAN FOR OUR FUTURE, THEN I AM PROUD TO SAY I AM GLAD TO B IN THE FUTURE!

I have a secret!

SHHHHH Don't tell anyone because I haven't until now...I WANT TO BE A PERSONAL TRAINER! YES for the last year the thought of going to school to become a personal trainer has been on my mind. One I would be a good addition to the fitness world, I love to give advice and assist with there fitness goals. I love to see a person transform from something that they hate to look at in the mirror to something they can't stop looking at! a plus with being a personal trainer is that I will always stay in shape by assisting others. Here is the thing though I want to help people in recovery or that is HIV positive to get in shape I want to specialize in that area. So you ask what I stopping me, well I don't feel like I am up to par physically, in order to bring business to me I have to be a walking advertisement right? Well anyway I just wanted o throw it out three in the atmosphere hoping the LORD and others here me.

When can one start living there life?

Ok this is a very sensitive topic I am about to discuss. Why you ask well one it's about family and two the person that made me think of it reads this blog sometimes so yeah yall see my problem. Well anyway here we go. I am firm believer of family and standing by them when times are tough....lose a job..sick..etc but will you pack up and leave your home and a potential temp job that can lead to something bigger and yes it may be a temp job but that is where I started with the company I work for and within a year departments were calling for me to be hired perm. Now please dont take this wrong but how much can you do for someone in the hospital? I would think that they would want me to live my life and visit on weekends when one had the time because if or when they are gone one would still have no job or a place to call their own. I am leaving the subject alone but fellow craziess am I going to hell for feeling this way?

ANOTHER BLACK GIRL LOST

So Miss. Foxy...Miss. Brown if your nasty got arrested again in my hometown Brooklyn NY. Policed received a call claiming that foxy violated an order of protection against her by her neighbor. The same neighbor she was arrested for harrasing in 08. FOXY I AM SAYING THIS LOUD AND CLEAR GET YOUR SHIT TOGEATHER. SMMFH

Monica - Love All Over Me

Waka Flocka Flame- "Hard In Da Paint" (Official Dirty Video)

WHY O WHY

Okay I am as gay as they come but this tom foolery u see above is a no no. Yes it is all about self expression and proud of who you are, but how do you expect people to take you seriously wearing heels and makeup. My entire family knows about me and accepts me but how would my mother and father feel if one of there friends saw me parading in the mall or streets with make up on and heels.....NOT GOOD! To top it off the fashions are a mess what real queen would wear these outfits please tell me differ. GAY'S PLEASE WE GOT TO DO BETTER WHEN YOU ARE IN THE PUBLIC EYE LIKE THIS IT IS A REFLECTION ON ALL OF US! SMMFH

WHAT THE HELL IS DIDDY"S PROBLEM!

So Diddy sat with GQ magazine to talk about what motivates him.......NOTE TO DIDDY THIS PIC IS NOT MOTIVATING! What the hell are you thinking no one wants to see your legs open and you still covering ur lil thing you could of at least gave us a peek a boo! Come on Diddy I rather see you chillin in a Armani suit standing next to Cassie ( SIDE NOTE: LADIES NEED TO TAKE LESSONS FROM HER ) or one of your many baby mother's. This pic distracts you totally from the article one I am mad that he is hanging from the ceiling and two who the hell is the guy in the background things that make you go ummmmmmmmmm!

THE DREAM SUCKS BIG TIME!!!!!!!!!!!!

Okay I am not a person big on looks, but I personally think THE DREAM looks like a puppy dog and not the cute one's! So today TMZ is reporting that The Dream filed for divorce in February, just 9 days before Christina Milian gave birth to their daughter Violet. The court documents state that the marriage was “”Irretrievably broken” and there is no hope for reconciliation. The document also states that the two, who were married on September 4, 2009, separated prior to the divorce filing and are currently living in a “bona fide state of separation”. ARE U FREAKING SERIOUS... first he played Nivea now C Milli what is going on? First of all Christina should have not taking him serously after seeing what he did to Nivea after having kids. What is it about this man...is it his hump game ( FROM THE LOOKS OF HIM I WOULD SAY IT IS WACKKKKKKK), or is it his paper which is long and strong, but these ladies were doing there own thing yeah they dont have his kinda paper but they had there own, Iam trying to understand how can they let this man or should I say BOI do this to them. On top of it all he writes an open letter about his break up with C MILLI on his website something that should have been private! All I can do is SMDH...LADIES WE HAVE TO DO BETTER! What are your thought's about it?

WHY WHY WHY OH WHY ARE OUR LIL GIRLS REALLY LOST?

Watching this video concerns me......This young lady who looks so pretty from what i can see decides to inject her ass with man made silicone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHY?????????????? She must not be aware that you can die from injecting this stuff into urself. She is not aware that the silicone can travel through your body and make it's way to your heart. I guess she is not aware of the toll it is going to take on her body when she gets older. Because of her ass she can no longer go into stores and go shopping....even Dereon and Apple bottoms cant fit an ass like this and they were made for women of color. Yes she can make paper but once the novelty wore off sweetie then what??????????????? I blame videos and hip hop if they weren't glorifying ass so much our young black sisters would not have to compete. If we would uplift our sisters this type of tom foolery would not happen. So enjoy my LIL BLACK GIRL LOST....because the looks would eventually fade the ass will eventually drop and then what??????? SO SAD! What do yo guys think?

LEBRON IS GOING TO MIAMI..WHO CARES

Can't we just leave this man alone? I f miami is what he choses then so be it, it his DAMN LIFE. This is crazy! they television networks had a 1hr interview with this man just to find out what team he is paying for????????? Yes I understand that means money for what ever city he decides to grace with his presence but come on now! OH and how can we forget the Cleavland and Dan gibson crying over the fact that he left and threating him and saying he is going to need a bodyguard! It's basketball people GOD did not just open up the gates of heaven! SMDH....What do my fellow crazies think?

CAN WE SAY FRUSTRATED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

O FREAKIN K.....Last night the male friend comes over I cook a wonderful meal of dirty rice ...and not just any dirty rice but I include shrimp and add a little more spice with a side of tiliapia. As I am cooking the meal he comes up behind me and starts to kiss my neck not just a peck but the wet juicy kind as I stood there with my basketball jersey on an nothing else I knew where this was going (YEAH BABY) so I tell him not now...he sighs an goes to the store. While the male friend was at the store that was the time to freshen up which I did he comes back to me in the bedroom doing something I dont know what the hell I was doing but it was something he goes into the livingroom and sits on the couch I follow and sit next to him! We are sitting there watching tv and I take his hand and place it on my cupcakes "WINK" and NOTHING!!!!!!!!!! I am placing your hand on the pot of gold and u dont get it! He can't be freaking serious! I say nothing we go to bed. This mornig we wake and I am just all over him rubbing his legs and playing with his nipple ring not just playin but PLAYING ok u feel me and NOTHING he didnt get that I had a itch that needed scratching. Do I have always be just nasty and say what I want can I just be sutle sometimes and play coy?????? UGHHHHHHHHHHH! What is it cause I can't explain it!