Preashea Hilliard | Make Me New

Ok So a friend of mines from NJ posted this on my page with the comment of " Watch GOD give you a great hug while you meditate on these Lyrics". And you know what I so needed this. It's funny how a person can say the right things at the right time. This is my mental at the moment, I want to be renewed again. I want to throw all pass negative thoughts and actions away and be made whole again. At the current time I am not part of a church family even though I need to be. I do miss hearing the word and all of it's teaching. I do miss feeling his spirit though out the church. I have to get back home!!! Enjoy

Heart

Sometimes my job does have a heart these are all the presents donated to the Salvation Army for the Christmas Angel . Honestly I am not in the Christmas spirit but this kind of pushed me a little! It makes think about all the kids that don't have and it really is not about us ( Adults ).

Questions

Why is it so easy to care but soooooo hard not to when it comes to matters of the heart ? Why is it so hard to understand where a persons feelings are coming from? I'm not saying to agree but damn at least acknowledge it! Why is it so hard for a person to see the part they played in hurting a persons feelings? Why is it so hard for a person to see that you will always have their back? Why is it so hard for a person to see the sacrifices made to love them unconditionally ? Well I guess these are all the questions in my head that will never get answered! 😞😞😞

Status

Know your status since this movie has come out so many breakthroughs have taken place PLEASE CRAZIES GET CHECKED OUT!!! This movie just breaks me down !!!!

So Simple

Sometimes it's the smallest things that makes a persons heart melt

John P. Kee & New Life - Life & Favor OFFICIAL VIDEO (@keetwit)

This song is on my heart, y'all don't even know that half of as a matter fact not even.........Happy Holidays!!!

Thankful

Four years ago, I was on the brink of suicide. I was at a point in my life where I felt worthless, and useless. I rather not go into why, just because when I forgave I also made a promise too no longer bring up the pass. But there is that five percent of me that wont forget. I wont forget that Thanksgiving day staying with my parents I couldn't get out the bed. There is that five percent of me that won't let me forget how my Mother And God Mother had to pray for me and over me because I let a person dictate how I should feel about myself. What's funny is four years later I am letting this person do it all over again but this time it's no suicidal thoughts, this time I know I am worth everything loving and caring in my life. So if this person wants to call themselves mad let them, I refuse to take more years off my life worrying about what you think of me. Life is to short. I will continue to love this person unconditionally until there is no more love left in me. The reason I am am also choosing to write about this, is because I need to release it from me. I needed to put it in the atmosphere so it no longer belongs to me. I am a loyal, loving, kindhearted may be a bitch at times complex person, but what ever he thinks I am I am NOT! So hell yea I am thankful!! I am thankful for my higher power opening my eyes and helping me realize I am way better then I was 4 years ago!

COMCAST SUCKS

Ok so I called today about my Comcast bill and they tell me I am late and it will be 264.00. So I asked the "SO CALLED" Customer service rep to explain to me how is the bill so high, well the fuckers charge you a month in advanced for the service that you haven't even used plus the 132.00 that was for this month. WTF you got to be kidding me!!! on top of that I was speaking to a rep that was in the PHILIPPINE WHATTTTTTTTTTTTT I damn near died. So you know what I did....Yelp I asked him does he have Comcast and of course the answer was NO another WTFFFFFFFFFFFFFF  Moment!!! These American companies outsource help, pays them pennies and they treat us the Americans( THAT USES THERE PRODUCT) like shit. needless to say I still have to pay the past due by Friday or my shit will be off!!! The kicker to me though is I asked the FILIPINO REP for a corporate office number so I can complain and here is what the little crap said " YOU HAVE TO TELL ME THE COMPLAINT, I WILL THEN TELL MY MANAGER, WHO IN TURN IF THEY FEEL LIKE THE COMPLAINT IS WARRANTED, THEY WILL CALL ME BACK WITH A NUMBER TO CORP" Another WTFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF Moment !!!  PML!!!!

BILLS ARE THE DAMN DEVIL

Bills.....How can I say this "GETS ON MY DAMN NERVES"..... I rob Peter to pay Paul, but then I have to throw Paul in the choke hold to pay Amy. The thing is I have no one to blame but my self . From student loans to fucking late ass cable bill I have no one to blame but me!!! Sometimes it seems like the illegal hustle is the only way to make it even if you are legit with two jobs it just does not seem like enough. I thought this holiday I would be able to do something for the love ones in my life but man it sure don't look too good! All I can do is put it in my higher powers hands and hope for the best. If I have to do without-then so be it. Oh and I am sure you are wondering why the pic with the tear, well that is how I am felling right now and...YES I did cry please don't judge me I'm human!

I try

I try my best to be your all, but for some reason I feel like I always come up short.....

Christmas wants

Normally every Christmas I want anything that shines but honesty this year I don't care . I rather see my loved ones happy opening there things from me. During the year so much is done for me. I just pray that my finances are correct so I can put a smile on the faces that I love ! Honestly I'm truly blessed and I know everyone says it and yadda yadda ya but I am if you guys knew where I came from or walked in my shoes you would feel the same . So it's my turn to put smiles on others. If it sounds like I am rambling on I'm slightly tipsy !!!

When life gives u lemons

U know me and the other half was just thrown a curve ball!!! Smh but it is what it is , but I will say this when life gives us lemons we will make a lemon drop daiquiri . I will always keep in my mind that everything happens for a reason what ever reason it is we may never know......just accept it and move on and find a way to get past it!!! Through it all our higher power will always have our backs!!!

Speaking of a PML

Ok I get to work cut on the computer and it tells me windows is not genuine and no Internet connection come on man I have shit to do!!! Ughhhhhhhhhh so now I have to sit at another desk use someone else's computer who mouse sucks ass and its bright as I don't know what!!! See people say it with me......


Phuck

My

Life

Now the the tech people are gonna take forever to see what the problem is . Which means my work will be pushed back and not by choice THIS SUCKS ROCKS

PML

Phuck

My

Life

Sometimes that is how I feel lmaooooo I'm sure we all have a bill that comes up , or something as small as traffic!! But in all actuality I love my life and all the trials and tribulations that comes along with it! But it's just a moment when sometimes u just have to say PML.......

Pork taco

Ok so we were able to try the Aurburn BBQ truck and it was actually good!!! It's was layered with slaw and some special sauce which to me was the star of the taco !!! The sauce married everything together u know what like threesome lmaooooo !!! Unfortunately we were not able to get the full effect because of time!! I would recommend this place on a Good Friday early evening or a Saturday afternoon when you and the girls finish shopping. It's actually cute for date night it beats the the restaurant food chains which is all over GA it gives us an opportunity to support our local chefs and business !!

Foodie

Ok so it's a wonderful day in good ole Atalanta Ga!!! And we are trying the food park...... Wait they close at 4 and its 3:11 ughhhhhhhh

Random Thought

The election is over people and our FIRST AFRICAN AMERICAN PRESIDENT HAS FOUR MORE YEARS!!! YAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH but am I the only one sick of the Romney jokes and the We come this far by faith mentality? Now don't get me wrong I too was nervous on Election night and could not even watch the news. I mean my stomach was in knots and I had to go to sleep. I much rather to wake up to the news if he won a second term or not. But DAMN PEOPLE here it is four days later and you are still wearing that same damn T shirt you had on Tuesday night, you are still rapping I GOT 99 PROBLEMS BUT MITT AIN'T ONE" Let it go and let the MAN do his job!!! CAN I GET A AMEN I pray I Don't get slack for this post but hell it's my blog ** KANYE SHRUG***

Beyoncé - Why Don't You Love Me

The Visual for this video is just everything!!! Not sure if it's my mental but this is my feelings at the moment!!!

Confused

Love is funny or is it the people or God listens? That moment when one is ready to throw in the towel love or God throws a curve ball and things seem a new and these are the moments that makes me hold on or I'm just a fool in love or love anguish and pain and all the ups and downs that comes with it !!!!

Emory University students say they were sexually assaulted - CBS Atlanta 46

Emory University students say they were sexually assaulted - CBS Atlanta 46

HMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM!

Human being

Regardless if we want to admit it or not but we all need love we all crave love! I hear so many people say
" I'm happy being single" and those are the same ones that want what u have. Yes Being single is probably fun 3 months out the year summer but what about the other 9 months? Are relationships easy no they are not it is a full time job almost like a career u know doing something u love so u stick with it!! I will never trade it in for anything in this world I accept it with all its ups and downs and surprises !! Wow this post as me in tears as I walk to the gym that has never happened ok!!

HAHA Food for thought

I don't have to be the person that has all the answers, I will never be!! I am not GOD he is the only one that sees all and knows all. So I will no longer beat myself up because I don't have the answer or worry myself trying to find the answer...............

Am I the only one in the world that wants this???

At times this is how I feel. I am a hopeless romantic that doesn't care about the expensive things in life, but this. Why is it so hard to find or as people to do?

Kelly Price - Mirror Mirror Album (playlist)

Does anyone remember this song?!?!?!?

Acknowledge my feelings

Why is it when you tell a person that they hurt your feelings it's so hard for them to apologize ? The thing is it's not only about an apology but the fact that you took into account of how you made a person feel even if you don't agree. At that very moment they are letting you know u have them feeling some type of way and we forget that even though we may not agree, we must take into consideration every persons feelings are valid . A persons feelings should not be tossed to the side like yesterdays news in the wind. I think today people don't know the true meaning of unconditional LOVE. I do know it may seem like I only blog when I am going though something and you know what it's true! I sometimes feel like I have no one to turn too. This blog is a way of me letting go and letting GOD!! If I release it in the universe it no longer belongs to me. Am I looking for answers???  NO but I can not hold on the hurt feelings or negativity if so it would do nothing but make me resent and harbor something I have no control over. And like I always say I am responsible for the effort and not the outcome. So if I let you know how I you made me feel ( That is my effort ) and you disregard ( That is the outcome ) I will accept and try my best to move on. 

Missy Elliott Ft Beyonce-Crazy Feelings

My Oprah's Haha moment

When I write in my journal or pray to my higher power I always pray for us, and this morning I realized that I can pray for him and pray for myself totally separate!!! I can no longer question y he acts a certain way or treats me a certain way! My only concern should be me becoming a better and loving person and to love unconditionally and to show me my wrongs and help my to identify . I can no longer pray for a change in him if he is not doing it for himself! I only can pray for his well being and health. I will no longer take responsibility for his actions or his attitude I love him with all my heart and soul but I can't beat myself up any longer.