Professional help

Ok so I have been having these thoughts and yes sometimes they do include hurting myself. I guess as long as I don't act on it right??? But there is a part of me that feels if I was no longer here that others in my life would be better off! I know this is deep but I honestly cannot talk to anyone else out there. I think I need to seek professional help so I can get these thoughts out. I kind of look at this blog as therapy for me u know kinda like a diary that I barely use . And also you know what they say if you put it out there in the atmosphere u release it!!! Just know this blog world a brother is tired!!!