Days

Since the break up I have good days, but for some reason I woke up this morning and I'm having kind of a bad one and I really wouldn't call it a bad one!! It's no crying or why we can't be together or the angry black gay man thing at all I'm fine with the break up but I continue to have thoughts of him. Noooooooo not thoughts of being with him but wondering what's he doing and who he is doing it with. I know that he was cheating I don't have proof but my heart that is telling me he was is proof enough. Well I'm going to church today with my family so that should get my mind right and then I head home to start the work week! Happy Sunday!!

You can count on me

The one thing I can say is that I realized today I am not alone. I have been blessed with a loving family and true friends. I now know I will be alright it will take me a minute to get my life back on track but I WILL BE ALRIGHT!! My heart is smiling a little :-)

PML

Ok here is another PHUCK MY LIFE MOMENT FOR U, this bastard left me with a 2300.00 debt for an apartment that we had to leave because he had a new job and end up getting fired from a few months later. Now I am starting to not like him very much!! I don't believe that I was gone on love like that I WILL NEVER EVER LOVE ANOTHER LIKE THAT AGAIN !!! NEVER

Wow

Well I brought my new year in fighting with the one person I love. HAPPY FUCKING NEW YEAR

New Year

So we are embarking on a New Year 2013!! 2012 was not my year at all I can honestly say I lost it all , car, computer, TV , and some what something in my relationship but the one thing I lost that was important to me is myself!! Yes I can admit I lost myself and who I am the life that I should be living. Yes it was many things that played a part in this but I have no one to blame but myself ! I need to get back to what was important to me and learn more about me ! The one thing I will say is I am resilience no matter hard I fall I always bounce back into place, but I'm getting tired a falling and dusting myself off again! I refuse to go into 2013 making resolutions that I will not keep. The one thing I will do us hold my head up to my higher power and pray for him to continue to work on me and with me!! This year has taking a toll on me I can really say. I have brought things and people back in my life that shouldn't be! Sigh well for the past month this has been on my heart I have to really let go of people places and things GOD I NEED U NOW MORE THEN EVER PLEASE HERE MY CRY KNOW IN MY HEART THAT ITS SINCERE I AM GETTING TIRED MENTALLY AND PHYSICALLY

COMPLICATED

Can someone please explain to me why do people list there relationship status as complicated. Every relationship has complication so my thing is either your in one or your not. RELATIONSHIPS ARE COMPLICATED PERIOD.

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I HATE COMCAST

Ok so I get my bill today a whopping 336.25 last month and this month combined!! Ok so as I read the bill I notice there is a charge of 38.00 for cutting my service back on. WTF !!!! Why am I getting charged 38 bucks for something that came on automatically as soon as I paid the bill???? It's not like a person had to come out here and cut the damn thing I so why am I getting charged this damn fee???? So I call to ask a question on hold for 25 min!!! Finally I get a person and I discuss my bill but was also informed that starting January, 2013 they are no longer accepting promise to pay!!! What the hell this company robs you every chance they get. I PROMISE YOU AS SOON AS AT&T CABLE IS AVAILABLE IM SWITCHING . How can you not assist your customers with promise to pay isn't that customer satisfaction?? Man I really hate this company and they know they have us by the balls because without cable there is no TV COMCAST Y'ALL SUCK!! MIND YOU I JUST NOTICED THEY CHARGED ME TWICE FOR THE REACTIVATION FEE ONCE ON THE 21at and the on the 26 and the pics here to prove it..... COMCAST I HOPE UR COMPANY TANKS

Vices

Ok so for the next 30 days I will try my damnedest to kick these two habits before the new year. I am not making this a New Years resolution because let's be honest how many of us really stick to them. How many times have we said for the New Years I'm going to get back in the gym and start eating healthy and by February you have fell off the band wagon?!? I have on many occasions so I decided to begin before the New Years and see how it goes. So please take this ride with me and pray that I make it!!!

One eye open

All is forgiven but I still don't trust u. I will continue to sleep with one eye open.

Falling Apart

Sometimes when things are falling apart or seem that they are, they may be falling into place......Basically LET GO AND LET GOD DO HIS/HER THING

Gay Men Will Marry Your Girlfriends

My GOD this is TOOOOOOOOOOOO FUNNYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!

Latoiya Williams Ballad of Jimmy Bones

Her voice alone is just simply beautiful. REAL MUSIC AND SINGER!!!

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Katt Williams Slaps Target Employee Full Video

What is wrong with him?!?!? Wait that was a stupid question. We all know whats wrong with him DRUGS!!! He had such a promising future. He has been fucking up his shows and so many other things. Now why I see why GOD does not bless every one with the riches of the world. It's a shame. I see this ending in three ways, Murder, Jail , or Over dose. I so pray for him and his family.

Facts about a VIRGO

I read so many things about Virgo's and some are true and somethings dont apply to all of US VIRGO'S. So being that I am a Virgo it's only right that I let you know a little about me. Now again this DOES NOT APPLY TO ALL VIRGOS This is just about me and what I have notice in myself and some fellow virog's.

11.Analytical, I analyze everything and my brain never seems to stop working or thinking .

10. Addictive personality. This is the worst and if it's not notice it can go in a downward spiral. 

9. Loves being home and cuddling with the other half. There are times when I dont want to be around my friends I just rather cook a good meal and watch a good movie and cuddle with the one I love.

8. Very Affectionate. Yes  I am the type that will caress your head and kiss you gently on your forehead to me it lets the person you know you love them without saying it with words.

7. ( NOW THIS PROB ONLY APPLIES TO ME) COOKING: I LOVE LOVE LOVE FOOD all types Indian, Thai, African, Creole whatever, I just love to taste and try new things. Now most Virgo's I do know they are very picky with there food. But me TUH HAVE FOOD WILL EAT!!!

6. VIRGO'S ( I ) WILL ALWAYS FORGIVE BUT NEVER FORGET AND I DO MEAN NEVER!!! ( PLEASE KEEP THIS IN MIND WHOEVER IS READING THIS)

5. When I love I love unconditionally and whole heartily.

4. LOYAL (there is nothing else for me to explain)

3. I am an Emotional person some people say its me being a drama queen, but I beg to differ. 

2. I believe in second chances and sometimes thirds depending on the person and how much time I invested. We are not all perfect hell I know I am not so hey it is what it is.

1. HOPELESS ROMANTIC, I believe in love and all that comes with it. Even though my life is not like the romantic comedy movies but they can be.  Even after being lied to and cheated on I still believe in LOVE and will never turn my back on it.

Now with this Like I said before THIS DOES NOT APPLY TO ALL VIRGOS, ONLY TO MYSELF! This list can actually go on and on but I didn't want to bore my peeps out there LOL.

It's done

The love as I knew is no longer we have loved each other for the past 6 years and its done. Do I want it to end no!!! But the one thing I can't and won't do is make a person stay when they want out. My heart is so heavy now but I rather be alone then stay in something where I am the only one that loves. And all his reasons are valid. I'm sure u want the reasons so I'm going to sum it up to one we are no longer good together. People do grow apart ! When a relationship ends its like losing a best friend it's like a funeral. I am not the perfect person never claimed to be. I showed who I was from the beginning all the drugs I did, the partying and all . Sometimes I feel like I would be better off gone its seems like I can never get anything right in my life . I'm a wreck I have not slept or eaten . The tears won't stop.....

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Preashea Hilliard | Make Me New

Ok So a friend of mines from NJ posted this on my page with the comment of " Watch GOD give you a great hug while you meditate on these Lyrics". And you know what I so needed this. It's funny how a person can say the right things at the right time. This is my mental at the moment, I want to be renewed again. I want to throw all pass negative thoughts and actions away and be made whole again. At the current time I am not part of a church family even though I need to be. I do miss hearing the word and all of it's teaching. I do miss feeling his spirit though out the church. I have to get back home!!! Enjoy

Heart

Sometimes my job does have a heart these are all the presents donated to the Salvation Army for the Christmas Angel . Honestly I am not in the Christmas spirit but this kind of pushed me a little! It makes think about all the kids that don't have and it really is not about us ( Adults ).

Questions

Why is it so easy to care but soooooo hard not to when it comes to matters of the heart ? Why is it so hard to understand where a persons feelings are coming from? I'm not saying to agree but damn at least acknowledge it! Why is it so hard for a person to see the part they played in hurting a persons feelings? Why is it so hard for a person to see that you will always have their back? Why is it so hard for a person to see the sacrifices made to love them unconditionally ? Well I guess these are all the questions in my head that will never get answered! 😞😞😞

Status

Know your status since this movie has come out so many breakthroughs have taken place PLEASE CRAZIES GET CHECKED OUT!!! This movie just breaks me down !!!!

So Simple

Sometimes it's the smallest things that makes a persons heart melt

John P. Kee & New Life - Life & Favor OFFICIAL VIDEO (@keetwit)

This song is on my heart, y'all don't even know that half of as a matter fact not even.........Happy Holidays!!!

Thankful

Four years ago, I was on the brink of suicide. I was at a point in my life where I felt worthless, and useless. I rather not go into why, just because when I forgave I also made a promise too no longer bring up the pass. But there is that five percent of me that wont forget. I wont forget that Thanksgiving day staying with my parents I couldn't get out the bed. There is that five percent of me that won't let me forget how my Mother And God Mother had to pray for me and over me because I let a person dictate how I should feel about myself. What's funny is four years later I am letting this person do it all over again but this time it's no suicidal thoughts, this time I know I am worth everything loving and caring in my life. So if this person wants to call themselves mad let them, I refuse to take more years off my life worrying about what you think of me. Life is to short. I will continue to love this person unconditionally until there is no more love left in me. The reason I am am also choosing to write about this, is because I need to release it from me. I needed to put it in the atmosphere so it no longer belongs to me. I am a loyal, loving, kindhearted may be a bitch at times complex person, but what ever he thinks I am I am NOT! So hell yea I am thankful!! I am thankful for my higher power opening my eyes and helping me realize I am way better then I was 4 years ago!

COMCAST SUCKS

Ok so I called today about my Comcast bill and they tell me I am late and it will be 264.00. So I asked the "SO CALLED" Customer service rep to explain to me how is the bill so high, well the fuckers charge you a month in advanced for the service that you haven't even used plus the 132.00 that was for this month. WTF you got to be kidding me!!! on top of that I was speaking to a rep that was in the PHILIPPINE WHATTTTTTTTTTTTT I damn near died. So you know what I did....Yelp I asked him does he have Comcast and of course the answer was NO another WTFFFFFFFFFFFFFF  Moment!!! These American companies outsource help, pays them pennies and they treat us the Americans( THAT USES THERE PRODUCT) like shit. needless to say I still have to pay the past due by Friday or my shit will be off!!! The kicker to me though is I asked the FILIPINO REP for a corporate office number so I can complain and here is what the little crap said " YOU HAVE TO TELL ME THE COMPLAINT, I WILL THEN TELL MY MANAGER, WHO IN TURN IF THEY FEEL LIKE THE COMPLAINT IS WARRANTED, THEY WILL CALL ME BACK WITH A NUMBER TO CORP" Another WTFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF Moment !!!  PML!!!!

BILLS ARE THE DAMN DEVIL

Bills.....How can I say this "GETS ON MY DAMN NERVES"..... I rob Peter to pay Paul, but then I have to throw Paul in the choke hold to pay Amy. The thing is I have no one to blame but my self . From student loans to fucking late ass cable bill I have no one to blame but me!!! Sometimes it seems like the illegal hustle is the only way to make it even if you are legit with two jobs it just does not seem like enough. I thought this holiday I would be able to do something for the love ones in my life but man it sure don't look too good! All I can do is put it in my higher powers hands and hope for the best. If I have to do without-then so be it. Oh and I am sure you are wondering why the pic with the tear, well that is how I am felling right now and...YES I did cry please don't judge me I'm human!

I try

I try my best to be your all, but for some reason I feel like I always come up short.....

Christmas wants

Normally every Christmas I want anything that shines but honesty this year I don't care . I rather see my loved ones happy opening there things from me. During the year so much is done for me. I just pray that my finances are correct so I can put a smile on the faces that I love ! Honestly I'm truly blessed and I know everyone says it and yadda yadda ya but I am if you guys knew where I came from or walked in my shoes you would feel the same . So it's my turn to put smiles on others. If it sounds like I am rambling on I'm slightly tipsy !!!

When life gives u lemons

U know me and the other half was just thrown a curve ball!!! Smh but it is what it is , but I will say this when life gives us lemons we will make a lemon drop daiquiri . I will always keep in my mind that everything happens for a reason what ever reason it is we may never know......just accept it and move on and find a way to get past it!!! Through it all our higher power will always have our backs!!!